I meant to write this post weeks ago right as I was at the end of my pregnancy and really over it. But time got away from me and things got a little crazy and here I am two weeks after Maddox was born so I'll do my best to remember. I'm thinking I'm not that far from it so it should still be pretty accurate.
Last month I came across a post being shared on fb (http://sarahbessey.com/learning-live-ache/) about the "ache" and I think she's right. Even in the middle/end of my most difficult pregnancy (compared to my other two, I know others have it much worse), I could relate. I knew that some day I will miss it. So what better way to make part of the ache go away other than writing about the things I WON'T miss?!
My first pregnancy was probably the easiest. I was tired and had heartburn towards the very end but other than that, it was a very uneventful pregnancy with regards to pregnancy symptoms. And when you don't have any other kids to worry about, you can take naps, relax, and generally take it easy. My second pregnancy was pretty similar. I had some nausea but nothing too bad. The heartburn was way worse but again manageable. This last pregnancy was different from the beginning! I was always nauseated and spent quite a bit of time in the bathroom waiting to get sick and actually got sick a few times. Again I know this could have been much worse but for me it was bad. The heartburn was ridiculous. Insanely ridiculous. It started at 16 weeks! I remember thinking that was way earlier than the other two times but I tried to stick it out. I really try not to take meds in general and especially when I'm pregnant but in the third trimester I got to the point where I couldn't handle it anymore. The OB reassured me that the meds were safe and there was no reason to be uncomfortable and unable to eat for another month plus. With my first two pregnancies, I gave up caffeine. I know you're technically allowed some caffeine but I just gave it up and was pretty much okay. With this pregnancy I was miserable!!! I had the worst headaches and I couldn't shake them. I tried to avoid meds again but even if I took Tylenol I still couldn't get relief. So again my doc told me one cup (or actually three) of coffee was okay! I normally only drink one cup so I went back to my regular routine of one cup of coffee in the morning and that seemed to help. I was also huge! I got way bigger way faster this time too which only led to me being more uncomfortable. I was having such a hard time sleeping. It was almost painful to lay on my side and switching sides was quite an ordeal. The baby was so low for a long time that if I was up and about for awhile then I would almost feel like I would have to hold my belly up. Then the fun started around 36 weeks. I began having contractions and they wouldn't go away. The more I did or didn't do, the more regular they became. The doctor gave me some meds (yup more meds) to stop the contractions. I was on Procardia for the last few weeks. The side effects were awful. It's a blood pressure medicine so it made me feel extremely light headed and nauseated all the time. And I had to take it every 3-4 hours so I had to set an alarm at night to make sure I kept up with it which of course led to more lack of sleep.
I know everything I just wrote sounds like I'm complaining but I just want to remember it. All of it. And years from now (or maybe even months?) when I get the ache and think I had great, easy pregnancies and want to do it all over again, I can read this and remember more accurately. Of course, I would do it all again in an instant. I am so blessed to be able to carry each of my children safely until their healthy arrival at 39+ weeks. And there is still so much I love about being pregnant. I will miss that special time that only I have with my babies before they're born. I will miss feeling them kick for the first time and every time after that as the feeling gets more pronounced and then so strong that you can actually see it! I will miss feeling their hiccups. I will miss feeling their pointy body parts poking out. I will miss their other pointy body parts in my ribs. I will miss all the emotions that come along from the moment I found out I was pregnant until the moment I heard their first screams in the OR.
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